I’ve known this for years. I am my own worst enemy. The good part is as I get older, the better I am at not doing this. But sometimes things happen to make me wonder if I’m on the right path and doing what I’m supposed to do.
See, all I have ever wanted to do is to write. I worked toward the day when I didn’t have to get up and go work for someone else. Even when I worked for myself, all I wanted to do was be able to go from my bedroom to my office. And I’d had my office in place for years.
Then life comes along and things don’t fall into place the way you think they should. Or one of your kids tell you that you love writing more than you love them or the grandchildren. Now that one cause me to pause and take this little self-doubt journey.
I’ve never doubted my ability but because I get bored easily with almost everything, I doubted my tenacity. But to be honest, writing is the only thing I have done all my life. Everyone has to have a passion and writing is mine. I think that is why I would fail at so many things...not exactly fail...but once accomplished absolutely no desire to continue that path. I have stories which are like that and it’s one of the reasons, I can’t write endings first. I can write the last line but nothing before it as I have to take the journey with my characters.
Still, after all is said and done, here I am, at my computer, typing away. Writing is my passion and I will never give it up.
Today's quote goes right along with this theme:
And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt. ~Sylvia Plath
Everyone needs to know they are good at something. If writing is what you are good at, go for the gusto and don’t listen to anyone who tries to tell you that your stories are worthless or that you don’t have it in you. You do. You just have to keep at it and they will read whatever you produce because they like you.
See ya tomorrow!